Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Troubled
Sighs. I'm feeling really sad right now.
Stuff's been happening, and I'm feeling really stressed. Shit happened today and I'm feeling more troubled. When you put them together and pile them on my shoulders, I just feel like falling and giving in to depression.
I didn't get to spend much time with her today too. I'm missing her so.
Sighs. Sighs. Sighs.
Feeling so depressed right now. I guess I'll be my own listening ear.
Bye.
Ash R Sheikh finished at
10:06 PM
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Happy Birthday Darling
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to Ilyana!
Happy Birthday to you!
Whoo!
I'm glad you had a nice time today dear. It was good to see you laugh and smile, especially on your birthday.
Well, here's a confession for you. I woke up this morning, and the biggest goal I had for today was to give you a birthday better than those you've had in recent years. I do hope I did my job.
Glad you're happy... XD
P.S. You still owe me that M18 movie treat for being older. heh
Ash R Sheikh finished at
6:52 AM
Friday, June 23, 2006
Updated
Well, I finally have the chance to update again. So here I am updating.
In three days' time, I'm gonna celebrate my third first month with Ilyana. God, i hope this time I'll be able to celebrate a first third month with her. Yesterday was my early celebration with her, since neither of us we'll be able to spend much time together considering our hectic schedules this coming term/block.
We watched The King and the Clown, it's a gay Korean movie. And I shit you not when I say gay. Literally, the King fell in love with a guy. The guy was pretty la, but still... Gay.
Hrm, after that, well, we went down to Suntec for a lot of window shopping. Spent quite sometime in Carefour. This time, a cow accompanied us instead of Winnie the Pooh.
But I swear, I really love shopping/window shopping with Ilyana. I think I've learnt more about makeup in the past month than I have throughout my entire lifetime. Well, that, and it's just fun being around her la. But I enjoy going supermarketing with her especially. It's just really really amusing. i don't know how to describe it... lol.
Hrm... Today, I've realised that I've had quite a handful of "nemesis/rivals" over the past 11 years. The list goes as follows...
Dzulkhaimi
Zarirnaziz
Guan Peng
Sky
Kai
Here's the funny thing. They were all my good/best friends at the beginning. In the case of Guan Peng, I was the one that screwed up and caused the whole bitter rivalry. For all the others, they turned on me.
Dzulkhaimi was a bastard to begin with... I don't even know why he was my good friend in the first place. I hated him since p1.
Zarir, well, stepped on my toes. And then he berated me over and over just to further fuel his already extremely enormous ego. Sighs... The typical soccer jockey/poseur.
Guan Peng, I abused his trust. So the shit that happened was completely my fault la. Well, at least that shit's all over and we're good friends again.
Sky and Kai, well, just got out of hand. Most of us already know that story, so I'm not gonna bother re-telling it in detail.
Oh well... Shit happens. I sure as hell know I'm better off without these people. So, life goes on. In fact, I'm happy with my life now.
I have the people I love with me, true friends all around me, and I'm contented with all the care and concern they've given me. To all my friends, thank you so very much. I greatly appreciate each and every one of you, and everything you've done.
In other news, I've been secretly playing Sims 2 all afternoon. I emphasize the word secretly because of two reasons.
1. By dad banned all games from being played on the computer. Yes, my biological father is a very boring old bloke who doesn't realise the devil his biological son can be. Oh well... His loss.
2. I'm supposed to be at SME's Sub-Comm camp since yesterday. But well, I have stuff to do. And I also had my lil' celebration with Ily yesterday. So, I can't make it. My parents don't know I'm home. They think I'm still in school. lol
Anyway, about Sims 2. I managed to turn my Romance Sim into a disciplined, caring, responsible bread-winning, family-oriented (well, somewhat) man. lol... First, I made him join the military. Then I got him promoted all the way up to Senior Officer, earning 600+ simoleons. After the marriage, and just one day before he turned into an elder, he got promoted to Base Commander. so amusing sia... now he earns 840 sim bucks, has a posh, huge-ass double-bungalow house. And he has the one wife and kid (daughter).
It's fun playing that game, but at the moment, I'm kinda sick of it, especially after dating it for 6 hours.
Currently, I'm the only one at home. And it feels so peaceful and quiet. I need more time like this sia... Woohoo! Can't wait to move out the moment I can stand on my own two feet.
Funny, I'm like the domestic help of this house. I'm the one keeping the house clean, and I have hell to go through when someone else makes a mess. Oh well... WHattodo? At least I know I'm responsible. Heh...
ARS for teh win! lolololololol
Ash R Sheikh finished at
5:31 AM
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Brain in scrambles
Okay, right now, my mind is all over the place. I'm trying to keep in mind all the plotlines and twists I just came up with for my story, while at the same time recalling all the chores I'm supposed to do after this. =__="
It's not my brain capacity that can't take it, it's the "RAM" of my brain. Processing so many things at one time can be very fucking difficult.
One thing that I remember now, is, for my friends out there reading this, please do drop by my
forum when you have the time. Do help make that place a whole lot more noisy. The people I'm especially targetting are Dayah and Gerard. Ifah, you've already joined it, but you hardly post. =__=" You're on break now. Post more pls.
Anyway, ily, you still haven't done the tag-thingy. By tonight dear, pls. XP
Speaking of her, I went out with my dear girlfriend yesterday. We were just walking around Giant, when she spotted a bra left in the bread section. She immediately threw it at my face. The side of the cup hit my eye hard. It's still a little painful today, since it hit the edge of my eyelid (side of my eyeball). Girlfriends are funny creatures. XPPP
It's her birthday in a week's time, but I'm going to celebrate it with her tomorrow. Don't ask where we're going. It's far, and it'll make me go broke this week. But I don't mind. XD
Hrm, today I found out that Ngee Ann's having a campfire on the 15th July. I'm guessing my invitation got lost somewhere in the email processing server. =__=" After all the shit I endured for and because of them, they easily discard me like that. Heh... Now I know why I walked out on them. Fuck you la Wichita!
Oh, I bought this pair of blue sneakers on Sunday. It's supposed to be mom's early birthday present for me. Bemusingly, she hid them once we got home. She said she's only giving them to me on my birthday itself. That's 1 month minus 1 week more. =__="
And did I mention to you guys I went shopping with my mom and sisters on Sunday? Yes, we did. We were there from 11am until 9.30pm. I didn't wanna go actually. I intended to stay home and talk to my dear girlfriend the whole day. But NOOOOOO... Dad forced me to follow them.
Me: But I don't like going to Orchard. (Whispers to Farhanah) I'm sick of it already.
Dad: It doesn't matter if you like going there or not. The point is for you to spend time with your family.
Me: =__=" whaa...? Nevermind.
So, I went to orchard for 10-and-a-half hours. Fucking tired la. Ilyana couldn't have said it better. "You should've just camped there or something". Camping at the Royal Crown Hotel wouldn't have been such a bad idea. lol
Speaking of Royal Crown. Apparently, there was a pile of shit/vomit somewhere in the female toilet in the lobby. It wreaked. The whole lobby stunk. I pity the people eating at Cafe Vienna. Having to endure that smell... Tsktsk.
Dad dropped us at the Heeren and then he went off to work OT. But before all the shopping really began, we went to watch Cars at Lido. It was a damn good movie la. But I was missing Ilyana too much. Smsed her over and over. When you don't see your gf for 5 days because of unforseen circumstances, it's hard not to miss her. Well, after all that shopping at Taka, Far East, DFS, CK Tang, Paragon, we finally went for dinner.
Dinner was at Lau Pa Sat. Satay, Nasi Pattaya, Crayfish, Stingray... Yes, I ate all that. 10.30pm, we headed back home. Thankfully, Marcus (a.k.a. Chai Hee) came to pick us up. So much for Dad's "Spend time with the family". While Marcus came to fetch us after a long day of work, Dad was happily watching the World Cup at God-knows-where with his friends after work.
He loves how to preach. But he never practises what he preaches. At least I'm a man of my word. Dad makes empty promises sometimes. He is only my father by blood. I don't and have never recognised him as my dad. Legal guardian, perhaps; Father, most certainly not.
Well, in the car ride home, Ilyana gave me a call. I was so fucking happy la. After a long day, hearing her voice felt like paradise. Though everyone in the car knew she was my girlfriend, it still felt weird telling ilyana i loved her with my mom around. =.=
Seeing her again yesterday, after nearly a week of not meeting each other, was really REALLY good. I missed her so much. In fact, after our outing yesterday, I've started to miss her all over again. So I'm in love... Sue me.
Girlfriend, I love you. Looking forward to tomorrow. XD
Ash R Sheikh finished at
3:16 AM
Saturday, June 17, 2006
I got tagged
Okay, before I go about doing the taggy thingy... I'd like you guys to know that I'm using my livejournal account as well. So, at times, I might post
here instead.
What were you doing in secondary school?
- Slacking, Flirting, Scouting, Maturing
5 of your favourite singers/band
- Blue
- Korn
- Jason Mraz
- Linkin Park
- Savage Garden
5 things you would do if you were a millionaire
- Buy and maintain a private house for my parents
- Buy a house with a private pool and home theatre
- Buy a ferrari
- Get Married, go on honeymoon, treat my wife to endless shopping sprees
- Buy the entire Kamen Rider Faiz toy collection
5 bad Habits
- Sleep late
- Wake up late
- Eating late
- Always late
- Return things late
5 things you like doing
- spending time with ilyana
- writing
- gaming
- watching movies
- camps
5 things you will never wear,buy or get
- never buy/wear a pink shirt/t-shirt
- never buy/get/wear(use) a gold-plated/diamond-studded dildo
- never get an operation for my hip
- never buy a Barney the Dinosaur vcd set
- never wear a bra
5 favourite things
- my 6280 hp
- my Guess? watch
- my MYUK wallet
- MONEY
- Computer
5 people to do this
- R Ilyana
- Zarifah
- Hidayah
- Gerard
- Taufiq
Ash R Sheikh finished at
5:21 AM
Monday, June 05, 2006
Bore Galore
I am ser-i-ously fascinated with Kamen Rider Faiz. Since my saturday mornings are always occupied with other crap, I hardly have time to watch it on central. Besides, the dubbings there suck donkey balls.
I watched Paradise Lost on youtube.com, but I wanna watch the rest of the series. Crud! Maybe I'll go save up money and buy the entire season dvd for myself on my birthday. lol... I need to indulge. Haha
Term test week is here, and I'm seriously bugged. I have no idea what the crap I'm supposed to do for MCT. Yeah, it's a hybrid of Java Programming and I got an A for the latter during last sem, but MCT is crack! I have never been so blur abt a subject.
ProgAuto is another crappy module. I have no idea how to draw the damn circuit layout. So so blur... Goodness.
I'm not into all this mechanical or circuitry crap, so I've decided to take 3D Design and Visualisation as my specialization next sem. At least it's all abt computers, graphics and simulations... AND NO BLOODY EXAMS!!!
People in Design get it so good. They don't have to muck like us Engineers. Sighs
Well, today is duty-free day. I completely have got nothing to do. Maybe I'll go re-play FEAR again (i completed the darn game btw). Or I'll just drop by SME later in the afternoon and see who's around that I can crap with.
I'm bored.
Ash R Sheikh finished at
7:58 PM
Saturday, June 03, 2006
First Week of the Rest of My Life
This has been one helluva week. And it was prolly the best first week with Ilyana I've ever had. lol
It's kinda exhausting too. Went to parkway on monday, orchard on tuesday, marina on wednesday. But it was worth it... I got to spend time with my darling XD
The rest of the week I got to see her a little. We're both caught up with work. She's got assignments to do, I've gotta study for my term test that starts tomorrow. Sighs... Hopefully, we'll be able to go out again this week.
Last night, my love and trust in her went up a notch. I can talk to her about anything, and I can trust her with everything.
I love you darling
P.S. Don't say I didn't update. XP
Ash R Sheikh finished at
8:49 PM