Thursday, July 27, 2006
Record broken
2 months and a day. That's my current consecutive record with Ilyana. Technically, we've already been together for 4 months, 2 weeks, and 1 day. It will grow longer and never end, God-willing. My second month-sary was wonderful actually. Well, the day before actually, I treated her to Seoul Garden at Tampines Mall. I won't elaborate what happened exactly, but I can say that my face got painted with a mix of chocolate chip and mint ice-cream.
On the 2nd month itself, we went to Jurong Point again. Yes, in Boon Lay. lol... Had japanese food for lunch. I think I prefer the Teriyaki Chicken Don to the Bento. Why? Because they're both about the same, but the Don is about 2 bucks cheaper. There you go.
Baby, we'll go Tiong Bahru someday... After I get my licence. XD
Hrm... in other news. I think I'm going demented. I've got a few projects that I need to do simultaneously. ProgAuto (due on Mon), MachTech, and Dynamics. Well, dynamics isnt exactly a project, just 3 lab exercises that carry a high weightage of my overall result and need completion soon too.
If all that weren't bad enough. I still have to study for DFUND2 and my driving Basic Theory. Yes, many people say it's easy and you just need logic to pass. But I don't wanna take any chances with it. I wanna get my damn licence asap and take my honey on vacation. lol
Well, in the meantime, I've found some peace in reading Bernie's Band of Brothers novel, though I'd so love to watch the 10-part miniseries all over again.
I need sleep. And I need more fibre too. Today, Ali and I suffered diarrhea. Apparently, we got poisoned by the free food served at some event in Business. Well, I should've figured it out yesterday. Business is a money-minded school. So why the hell would they give things away for free? -__-"
Free food at Business made me go to the toilet to do my business. argh!
Well, skipped school today. Met Ali at the bus stop opposite TP at 10.30am. Took a bus down to the Tampines Polyclinic. Bloody crap. The place was damn crowded. It really didnt help. I had to hold my "ammunition" for 2 and a half hours. I kept on rattling my leg. Ali couldn't shut up. He was making all sorts of obscene remarks about everything around us.
The doctor confirmed we were having food poisoning. Oh oh oh. There was this woman at the pharmacy who had a rather intruiging name - Frank Siti Natra. Or at least that's how I think it's spelt. It's pronounced that way though.
Met Sharon, Salamah and Haiqal in TP today. Changkat's having the 40th anniversary concert in auditorium 1 tomorrow night. It was good to see them again. It's been a very long time. I miss the changkat peeps.
Hidayah, i don't think I can go for the concert la. My wallet's bleeding too badly already.
Since Ilyana's school this month starts in the evening, I've been going to the library to watch DVDs the past few days. Unfortunately, when the story is about to go into its climax, the tvs shut off. Library dvd section closes at 8.30, so the DVD players are terminated around then. Bummer. I was happily watching M-I-2 when the screen just died on me. I was pissed.
Sighs. The days shall get better. I have Ilyana by my side. That's enough inspiration for me. XD
Ash R Sheikh finished at
8:16 AM
Monday, July 24, 2006
My 2nd Month Gift
I swear, I really need to start working on my projects earlier. After weeks of procrastinating, I only have 7 days left to finish up my Programmable Automation project. I haven't even started sia.
Ilyana had to chase me out of bed this morning just so that I can get started on my work quickly. Even now, I'm a wee bit lazy to type out my damn product report. Sighs. Just not in the mood la I guess. Oh well...
Finally! I have my own issue of SFX! It's an American-based sci fi magazine, and this issue so happens to have Stargate SG-1 on its cover! EAT YOUR HEART OUT FIQZ! WHOO!
Special thanks goes out to Ilyana for getting it for me. XDD
Many people wonder why I like Stargate so much as opposed to all the other sci-fi shows shown locally. Well, for one, Stargate is so fucking underrated in Singapore. It just doesn't get as much publicity as it deserves.
Stargate is a damn good show. Why? Because among all sci fi, it's the most believable. It's not some uber-cool science fiction series set hundreds or thousands of years ahead. It's set in present time, and it deals a lot with human emotions, Earth mythology, and our struggle to compete against some of the toughest and most advanced alien civilisations out there.
If you're not a Stargate fan, you should be ashamed of yourself.
Anyway, in less than 24 hours, it's gonna be my first consecutive second month with Ilyana! Woohoo! It's a benchmark for us. lol we've had three first months. So a consecutive second month means helluva lot.
Well, technically, we've been together for 4-and-a-half months in total. Hrm... I guess that explains why it's been only 2 months but it feels like ages already. Never have I met a person who has completely become my life. I'm complete now that I've found her.
SHE IS PERFECT FOR ME
Ash R Sheikh finished at
6:45 PM
Friday, July 21, 2006
21 July 2006
Kids these days are highly amusing. While walking down one of the lorongs in Kembangan yesterday, this huge ass dog started barking at me from behind the front gate of a house. It was barking rather loudly too, like it always does when it sees me.
There was a couple walking quite a distance behind me, pushing their little baby/toddler in a pram. The lil boy started barking back at the dog. It was a bloody barking contest la, except that the boy sounded cuter. lol
I really hope I'll get a son someday. But either way, I want a daughter as my first child. XD
Oh, another amusing fact... this time about dogs. This stupid brown mop-of-a-dog started barking at me when I was about to reach the bus stop. Ilyana, that's the one I told you gave me a fright. Bloody creature. Well, the thing is, it barked at me so bad that I got really pissed and pointed my middle finger at it. The damn furball shut up immediately. Heh... Dogs bright slobbering creatures after all - they know what STFU means.
In other news, for the first time, I saw Ilyana wear specs yesterday. Of course, she's had them for ages, but she hasnt ever put them on in front of me. Well, I decided to wear my specs around her too yesterday (though of course not for the first time). And we took a little picture together.
And it turned out to be Picture Perfect. XD
It figures. After all, she is perfect for me.
Ash R Sheikh finished at
7:14 PM
Monday, July 17, 2006
Being 18
It's been 4 days being 18. Life isn't all that different actually. But it has been a little more tiring than usual.
Didn't really do much on friday. It was the usual, hanging out at clubroom, thrashing people at ps2 racing, stuffing my face with Cutlet Rice from the Short Circuit canteen.
Saturday, though, was helluva lot fun. Went iceskating with Ilyana, Andrew and Ali. Actually, I was supposed to meet Ilyana at her place at 9am, and join the other guys at Eunos at 9.15... BUT BUT BUT... My stomach wasnt feeling all too well. I actually threw up.
SO, my schedule got delayed by about half-an-hour. Sighs. But the day went well. Funny thing was, Hidayah and Mas were supposed to join us too. But because the both of them somehow couldnt make it, Ali kinda got depressed. Sarah was supposed to join us too. But she blew us off and went to watch a movie with her other friends. Andrew was initially bummed. Then Sarah called him down to join them. He left too. Sighs.
After iceskating from 10.30 to 1pm, Ilyana and I were alone, and we went to eat at Jurong Point. XD But yeah, iceskating was damn fun la. lol she finally learnt how to skate, well, somewhat. For a beginner, she was real good. Kudos to you baby! XDD
There were some magical moments too. lol... synthetic 'snow' falling from the ceiling. i love... haha
Oh, ilyana and i ate at Banquet. She had Terriyaki Chicken Don while I had the Bento. The food's nice, but the terriyaki chicken tastes a bit off compared to the one I'm used to eating. Don't really know what I'm blabbing about right now coz I'm really really exhausted, but I guess you get the idea.
We went to watch POTC: Dead Man's Chest after that. The sequel, IMO, seemed somewhat darker compared to the original one. Lots of story twists here and there. Amusing la, but not really much of a conclusion. It kinda seemed a lot like Matrix Reloaded, with a cliff-hanger ending.
In other news, today, on my way to school, I kinda set a certain goal for myself. I shall get at least As for Principles of Dynamics, Digital Fundementals 2 and Engineering Maths 3 this sem. DIE DIE MUST GET As. I can so fucking score well in them, provided I push my lazy ass a lil bit more. It's gonna be difficult, but I shall... for my sake, for ilyana's sake, for our future's sake. ;D
It's amazing what love can make you do. lol
I'm really exhausted. Followed ilyana to Joo Chiat today. Spending more time with her, and her absence on certain days, just convinces me even more that some things are meant to be.
Stargate SG-1 (Season 10) and Stargate Atlantis (Season 3) have started. Thanks to my dear girlfriend, I'm getting to watch them soon. XDDD
Okay la... I guess that should be enough for now.
P.S. I'm still waiting to exercise my Singaporean rights and go watch an M18 movie. heh
Ash R Sheikh finished at
5:20 AM
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Aftermath
Thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday yesterday.
Ilyana, special thanks goes out to you again for making my day. XD I love you very much.
I also wanna apologise for anything and everything bad that I've done. I cherish and appreciate you and every single thing you've done for me. Thank you for completing my life. XDDD
Ash R Sheikh finished at
8:52 PM
Happy Birthday to Me
Today would've gone into the records of unforgettable birthdays if it weren't for my dearest, R Ilyana.
It was pretty much a horrible day, with the exception that I got to spend time with her.
Seriously, the first thing I got today was a scolding from my dad for something I didn't do. Then there were classes which were highly depressing and stuff.
Baby, thank you so very much. If it weren't for you, my birthday would have been a fluke. Thank you for everything. I love you very much. XD
Ash R Sheikh finished at
5:15 AM
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
Prelude to my Birthday
Okay, in less than 24 hours I'm turning 18. Whoo! Legal to drink, legal to smoke, legal to get laid. Unfortunately, I'm not gonna do either of them, well, except for the last one. But even then, that'll only come after marriage.
Aaanyway, as an early birthday celebration, Ilyana brought me to Swensens yesterday. A very delightful surprise. We went to parkway yesterday evening. She said she'd treat me to dessert as one of my birthday presents. I actually thought it was Anderson's Ice Cream. That's because we're always running into their outlets wherever and whenever we go out, and I'm always craving for the icecream.
Turns out, it's actually Swensens. Lol... My eyes were watery sia. I was so surprised, glad, and extremely appreciative la. Thank you baby, very very much. XD
Both of us had Cookie Summit. Had lots of fun in Swensens. But I shall not elaborate here.
Right now I'm in her Design lab, blogging on their Mac computers. Funny thing is, she's right beside me blogging too. She actually pestered me to blog. I'm too lazy la. Finally agreed when she suggested we blog at the same time. haha
I just haven't really had the time to blog la. Well, dear, I hope you're happy now. =D
Oh, this morning my dad just called SingTel up to upgrade my plan. At the moment, I've been using the same shitty 3-year-old Classic plan which entitles me to a mere 200 mins free talktime and 360 free smses. Starting my birthday, I'll have 500 free sms and free incoming. Ash for teh w1n!!11one!1!11one!
I told my mom I didn't want to go to some fancy restaurant for my birthday this year. 1. I'm too lazy to go out, so I just wanna slack at home and enjoy ordered-in pizza with my family. 2. I sure as hell don't wanna dress all formal again. So sick of it. =.=
Okay, work calls. I need to go back to Engine to do my MachTech project design and report which is fucking due tomorrow morning.
Okay people, take care. Blog again soon, I hope. XD
Ash R Sheikh finished at
11:37 PM
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Records Beaten
Life is like a crazy sine wave. It has its wonderful ups, and it's horrendous downs.
Today, is certainly one of the best ups I've ever had.
I'm catching back up with work in school. I kinda love this term a whole lot more than the previous one. There are more computer-based modules, and I find it a lot easier to do.
Take Machining Technology for example. Last term was the manual-manufacturing side of it. Such a pain in the ass. Operating heavy machinery at 8am in the morning with a fucktard Goh Toh Check for a TSO. Bloody ruined my Thursday mornings la. I felt dead and depressed by noon.
Now, it's more of using Pro Engineer software in the computer lab, and generating 3D designs. So fucking easier... And I actually enjoy it la.
Then there's Principles of Dynamics. Using the computer to generate simulations as well. So bloody fun sia. I'm enjoying lab lessons now. Whoo!
I haven't gotten to the best part though.
In a week and two days, I'm turning 18! Now I'm really really excited. Since this entry is open to the public, im not gonna state why.
But but but, the best thing is, today, Ilyana and I have surpassed the amount of time we've been together the previous two times. 1 month and 1 week, and 1 month and 1 week and 1 day, records have been beaten. Us for t3h w1n!!! lololol
I'm high tonight! My love for my dearest has gone up another notch. We have a weird, amusing, but very much wonderful love story. We've been through a lot. Lot's of shit - well, we are human beings after all. Like any other couple, we have hit rock bottom... But I guess, it's the tough times that actually opened our eyes.
The first time I screwed our relationship up, which was back in early 2002, I realized how much she meant to me. I changed so much because of her. I became a better man because I felt so guilty for doing her wrong. Unfortunately, it was too late.
But I've been given yet another chance to be with her. And I don't wanna screw it up ever again.
There are times where you can get attracted to someone, and you feel like there's strong chemistry. But with her, it's different. With Ilyana, I can feel that she's the one. She's all I could ever want and need.
There is no life without her. My love for her is so strong that she IS my life.
I love you darling, oh so much.
I am complete now that I've found you. XD
Ash R Sheikh finished at
8:25 AM
Sunday, July 02, 2006
ARS Throttling back up
I am going to rant. I am going to whine. I am going to be pathetic in this entry.
Friday, I breathed awhile. I didn't feel so stressed out like most of the week.
Yesterday, it wasn't all that bad. I had fun in the night talking to Ilyana. Today, my mood hit rock bottom. Sometimes my mind reads too much into things. But it also seems to see things that people blindly and sub-consciously do.
I feel really really sad today. Not to the level that I'm distraught, but to the point where I can cry. Life's been really sucky lately. Fuck it.
I have been observing, and I have noticed things. Things which most definitely upset me. Things which both get on my nerves and make my eyes flood.
I am depressed. I'm starting to have my doubts this time. I need to talk to someone. I need to cry.
Today, I felt useless, unwanted and unnecessary. There were times where I even considered suicide as a way out. But I can't let my emotions get the better of me. Well, not the stupid ones at least.
One thing I know is that I'm so fucking not looking forward to my birthday already. Fuck it fuck it fuck it. I don't give two fucks about anything anymore. I am pissed, I am hurt, I am depressed. My birthday's gonna come and go like the 4 pathetic excuses for days this week.
Sighs. I sometimes wonder why other people's happiness often come at the expense of my own. And it's at least 90% of the time. I fucking hell have so many restrictions around me. So many fucking people put restrictions around me for their own God-damn entertainment and amusement. But it seems to be a sin if I did it in return. I can't fucking be happy, coz everyone else wants to.
Fuck it. Tonight shall be the last day this happens. When the sun rises, I'm so not gonna give in anymore. Tomorrow shall be my day. Stand by me or get the fuck out of my way.
I shall go back to my dark and frosty little room now, where my presently insignificant presence disturbs nobody else for the night. There and then, I shall cry my eyes out.
Good night all.
Ash R Sheikh finished at
11:06 PM